DOOM HAS COME UPON ME

 

Ugh. Hello. So, a quarter way through Exams and it’s a mixed bag so far. Hateful! I am also very bad at working at home – it makes me upset, it’s not the place for it – which makes everything worse as I haven’t been able to prepare this week as I might have wished. There is also a lot of period related anxiety; I am petrified that I will get it on Monday, which would be the absolute worst thing to possibly happen – I have four and a half hours of Exams to do that day and I won’t be able to concentrate if in pain. So I am hoping that either today, tomorrow, or Sunday will see The First Day of the Blood Carnival, or Tuesday or something.

I just want it all to be over! It’s so overwhelming and such a cruel way to assess people; if I mess up now the last seven years won’t matter or have been worth anything or count for anything. None of my successes in the past will matter, if I mess up now.

Which is fun. But over soon??? I guess???

But h/c went well – post on the way about that.